I had a terrible dream last night. It went like this: You, Levi, Ryan, Jordon, Brittany, Mackenzie, Mom, and Dad were all driving with me. And we were on that stretch of road were my tire blew, but this time when it blew I wasn’t as quick thinking as before and the 18-wheeler hit us and I was the only one to make it out and I had no one left to talk to (I think I realized y’all 8 are the only ones I speak to on a regular basis) and I had to live with the fact that I was responsible for all of y’all being gone and I woke up crying this morning cause I was so scared and sad about the dream and I had to check the date and facebook to make sure it was all fake but still continued to cry for almost 45 more minutes…it was terrible.. Just made me realize how much I love you and miss you Jenny Benny
I know EXACTLY what you mean. When I first met Cameron there was just this raw attraction, like not just physical attraction. Ah I don’t even know how to describe it. It’s like you just know that your supposed to be with them even though you know so little about who they are.
He sounds amazing Colie, I’m so happy for you. I miss you terribly):
About what he could be wearing, if he’s wearing his glasses or contacts today, if he’s thinking about me, if he would like what I’m wearing right now, weather or not he likes Chinese food, if he wants to hang out soon, if he’s seeing any other people right now, what he is planning on doing later, what he views me as, how soft his lips are, how he ran his fingers along my side and hips outlining my body when he kissed me, how he got scared and protective when I first sat on the edge…I think I might be broken, I’ve never thought this much about one thing and that was just the things I was thinking of right when I was writing. Sometimes when I think about him I get this weird feeling in my gut like nervousness mixed with excitement mixed with nausea mixed with happiness and then my heart will start racing and going cady wumpus..It confuses me Jenny, I’ve never felt like this…Just thinking about that first date/ time to hang out I smile and blush. I think I might be with this kid for a while, I just have that feeling ya know?